sometimes i want you to be me. 

at least for once in your whole life.

you could feel the hurt that i feel

you would wake up in the morning and realized that everything is not going on right,

you would never understand what is 'happiness' anymore.

you opened your eyes and you wished you could sleep a little longer because your life isn't even better than any dream would ever be.

you cried so much that you didn't know what to do to make yourself happy.

you felt like you're stuck in someone else's life

you realized that it's not what you've fighting for.

it's the other way around.

you would look at the mirror and whispered to yourself

sometimes i wish i could be you

i would wake up and not even bothered to take a shower,

wake up with the thought of "games" on my mind

and even not concern about anything else.

i would enjoy my days coz i never care about anything else,but myself.

epic.

i wonder what if it really happened.

actually i have no idea why are we still friends. i know that you don't like me that much.

you've been faking all of those kindness for long long time ago.

and you've been a bitch by sneaking inside my mind,and pull it out to some other friends.

thanks for that.

and you know what,you're not a winner of all.

i'm playing this game much much better than you.

i guess you're just forget that i am a brat.

i'm not calling myself 'brat' for no reason,kid.

watch out ;)

well yeah. i'm moved. the old blog is just.. too many things that i don't like about it. first of all,there are too many posts that.. not so me. yeah i can say i was too much faking things. lmao. yeah so true,i told you i like this bla bla bla -which is not. or perhaps i told you that i'm pissed of bla bla bla - which is not even true at all.

so here i am. i hope i'll get better with this new blog. now commenting is available. and i dun know whether i'll put back cbox or not. coz somehow i don't really like talking with someone i dunno. lol x)

well you know what,i've been pissed. twice. someone hacked my facebook. turn it into Bahasa Indonesia (well dude if you can not speak English please don't hacked my fb and turn it up into bahasa. please.) which is i know that's surely indonesian who hacked me. i dunno whether it was someone i know or not. and i did changed my password -everyday. i swear. i did that EVERYday. yeah,tiring. but well,i dun want it happened twice. but - voilaaaaa! it happened again. damn it. the hacker approve all of the 300+ friend requests of mine. god damn it. i dunno any of them. and some of them are.. EWWWWWWWWWW. alay! fuck it up.

so now i'm in process of avoiding it -change my email,and still i will change the pass EVERYday. hah! actually i don't really care of facebook nowadays. i just open it once in a day - for about 20 minutes. then left it. lol. i'm more like to seek some news of kpop. or blogwalking.
dang,facebook is boring. for seriously. and yeah too many probs come out from it.

so what i'm doing now? well,like,i'm so concern of my study now. i really wish i could get the high score. and i'm on diet. i have to lose 30 kgs. for seriously i have to.